jakibabi
Saturday, January 31, 2009 (9:05 PM)
Karma is coming back to me, me , me , me.
if I had to make a confession, IT WOULD BE ON MY AMEBLOG BITCH.
and no one is going to read it...
(8:55 PM)
:(
Jakibabi = emotional trainwreck.
(7:42 AM)
:'(
(12:03 AM)
i've been looking forward to THIS Friday since.. MONDAY!I've been working everyday since Australia Day. SOOO drained out. Today finally got some decent sleep when I got home.Didn't end up going to work today, i don't think they needed me to come into work anyways. no biggy (Y). Stayed home all day SLEEPING, what I do best ;) have work again tomorrow...*sigh. My life is so in order right now there isnt even a need to blog about anything now :( nothing ever interesting happens anymore. College is almost starting, I still need to find out which day I start. When college starts, I'l have NO FREE DAYS in my week, coz, 3days of college, 4days of work. HOW DAMN FUN right. can't wait can't wait. Jaki is quiet ready for another shot of no-social-life-road. Keeping myself busy for the time being..Ppl's been asking me what Im doing for Valentine's day lately.I don't freaking know go ask miley. Everytime I think about Valentine's day it shits my pants because Im always excited about this day, for no particular reason ;-) ;-) maybe just one or two hehheheheh. Yukio and I are going Vday shopping next week.yayyyy. we are both kinda like : oh shit, what are we shopping for again?" hahahaha. we are such suckers for presents (N).woo wooo. ITS IN 15 days.
okay, its 1am in the morning, i have to wake up again in 6 hours I think i should go to sleep now.
BYE
Friday, January 30, 2009 (12:54 PM)
seiya + kazuaki = ♥ zomfg. *nosebleed*
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009 (12:59 AM)
I HATE YOU.
fuck you.
Why the fuck do you even bother?? You never gave me anything I wanted, never treated me like you should, never talked to me like you cared, why start trying now? fuck, just give it up will you.
That 7mintues felt like 7 hours listening to your bullshits, just shut the fuck up. I don't care what you have to say. I don't want to know what you have to say. Be greatful I even putted up with you for such a long time.
GOOD BYE AND FUCK OFF.
Monday, January 26, 2009 (9:18 PM)
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR +
HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY !!
*blog later. too tired. :)
Sunday, January 25, 2009 (8:11 PM)
wow.ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR TOMORROW. &
ITS CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE TODAY : D
I just had some kind of massive fattening dinner. I didnt eat much, but I feel so bad I'm this close from feeding myself a finger. It kinda feels like Christmas, with all the food and family gathering. Except you get presents on Christmas but you get cash for CNY. (Y). Not much hope in getting much $ this year though. Just coz there aint that many people that WILL be giving it to me besides my aunties and grandparents and thats pretty much it, oh and my loving mother ofcoz.
I'm so tired from work, I want to go home now, and sleep.
(and find my phone). This morning, I woke up trying to find my phone, and I can't. I don't know where it is , I went to work without a phone. I'l try to find it later when I get home....I remember recieveing a message in the middle of the night, but now im not sure if I was dreaming or not. I always get that..if someone calls me while im sleeping and i chat with them for a while and go back to sleep, when i wake up, it feels like i was dreaming. HAHHAHAHA. and i'l check my phone incoming call record just to make sure I wasnt ^_^
Friday, January 23, 2009 (7:35 PM)
Hey Earth, I'm back to blog some more. I don't know where or when to start on my recount but, I'l try ;)
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(actually i won't try)
I really cant remember what happened this week. Besides working, its still working, some sleeping, money making, heart breaking, coffee drinking, ice cream eating, nail painting, etc etc. i'm still sick. Not as sick as before, getting wayy better now but still a few coughs and shit along the way.
Jakibabi(me) is becoming very emotional lately!!!!: O WHAT'S WRONG JAKIBABI? TELL ME, WHAT'S WRONG?????!!!>: O
...anyways. not much to blog about really. none of you deserves to know anything about my life right now^_^
(7:32 PM)
fairytale?its real, bitch.
(12:09 AM)
i'd love to blog about my feelings here but this place isnt where i would share them anymore.
it's sad. that i need to hide everything from the rest of the world.
Its painful, its hard, its not easy.
no one ever said it was going to be easy.
and im not going to give this up.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 (8:24 PM)
sometimes I cry myself to sleep,
knowing how lonely I acutally am.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009 (10:02 PM)
プレゼントありがとう♥Sunday, January 18, 2009 (12:57 AM)
omfg kazuaki looks sooo good with black hair o( *C*)oim still soooooooooooo sick :( arghhh.... i want to feel better soon :(
Friday, January 16, 2009 (9:49 PM)
this won't be the last time that im having another emotional breakdown.
i really need someone next to me right now. I dont want to run away from my problems anymore. god please show me a sign....
im so, so so tired.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 (6:00 PM)
爲什麽我的病還沒有好.....
很辛苦.....
之前常常跟自己說...
'我很喜歡痛苦的滋味'
原來.....
痛苦的滋味一點也不好受.
這幾天吃的藥真多...
多到數也數不完...
日日不是睡就是......還是睡吧...
還有!昨天晚上收到一條短信..
看完有點癡撚左綫既感覺...X(
已經病到半死甘仲收到d甘既野...
個一刻我真系唔知可以俾d咩反應自己...
我真系唔知可以點...
所以...我選擇...繼續睡!
因爲睡覺可以忘記所有......
不過我現在很清醒...點算.
真系好希望唔會系真..
我好驚...寂寞.
好暸!!
我又要睡啦...
吃了藥...很累.
............想在只想病快點好..
Monday, January 12, 2009 (1:12 AM)
work....thats it.
friday;
went out to the city at around 10pm, met up with anna and simon, chilled for a bit and starbucks and met up with peter. Then went over to dixon to meet yukio and kerix..then we headed off the sublime...at first i didn't want to go in, but i did anyway...I stayed out at the balcony all night...feels so good up there..It was a very tireing night for me...we all left at 4am..yukio and chris took me to catch the nightride home...got home at 5am and went to sleep...
saturday;
woke up at 8am for work!!only got 3 hours of sleep but it felt like forever. So glad I got that 3 hours of sleep...went to work like a zombie.I hate that pillover feeling, it sucks! Felt sooo shitty at work I pist everyone off(again) hahaha. I'm never doing a pillovers shift ever AGAIN. after work, mummy came to pick me up from work, got home and SLEPT LIKE A BITCH until sunday :D
sunday;
work...still not enough sleep, sick sick sick sick. sooo sick. after work, mummy came to pick me up again, got home,showered and took some medication, and went to sleep...then at 12am anna choi called and woke me up.we chatted for a bit, and so now im here..typing this..1:30am in the morning.
Friday, January 9, 2009 (7:10 PM)
♥Jakibabi.,,
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I ONLY EAT FOOD , WITH CARTOONS ON THE PACKET. (2:37 AM)
i GOT A POSTCARD FROM YUKi TODAY <3Thursday, January 8, 2009 (12:13 PM)
20 more mintues until I head out to work, again!!!!!!!!
sorry havent been blogging lately much...its just soooooo boring and hot lately!!
The weather got up to 40, 42c yesterday and the day before...
luckily today its cooler and the sun isnt so big...
or else someone will need to clean up my pile of melted jakibabi!!
Besides work Im just staying home ,staying away from the sun n all :D:D:D
anyways, off to work now...
MISS YOU ALL <3
Tuesday, January 6, 2009 (10:50 PM)
♥ICY'S PRESENT FOR JAKIBABI. (10:41 PM)
I AM MRS KAULITZ-KAZUAKI!!!
(10:14 PM)
You say it's okay,
When really it's not.
It makes you sick,
But it's these thoughts you fought.
You feel the heat in your shoulders,
your hands start to shake,
You keep to yourself,
as you silently wait.
You deal with the pain,
with each word you write,
Thinking nice thoughts,
To help your mind fight.
Your stomach is turns,
You feel you should die,
But you breathe a breath in,
and you try not to cry.
It's really not bad,
this lie that you made,
To help you fight through,
As the feeling will fade.
When really it's not.
It makes you sick,
But it's these thoughts you fought.
You feel the heat in your shoulders,
your hands start to shake,
You keep to yourself,
as you silently wait.
You deal with the pain,
with each word you write,
Thinking nice thoughts,
To help your mind fight.
Your stomach is turns,
You feel you should die,
But you breathe a breath in,
and you try not to cry.
It's really not bad,
this lie that you made,
To help you fight through,
As the feeling will fade.
(1:33 AM)
JAKIBABI RECIEVED ICY'S CHRISTMAS PRESENT TODAY!
THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH BABY I LOVE YOU!
ICH LIEBE DICH !!!
ps. kazu IS SO HOT!
Monday, January 5, 2009 (9:45 PM)
SORRY TO BURST ALL YOUR BUBBLES ,
BUT YES.
I AM A PRINCESS THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Sunday, January 4, 2009 (3:31 PM)
Yesterday I had work, today I don't have work and Im staying at home, and going out later . Tomorrow I have work and the rest of the week I don't have work so I don't know what I can do..
*sigh............................
my life is sooo sooo sooo intersting sometimes ; _ ;
Friday, January 2, 2009 (3:36 PM)
FOR NEW YEARS,
I HAD A PRETTY SMASHY NIGHT ;)
12/31
I went out to the city at around 8 to meet up with Anna Choi to give her my phone and charger but when I got to her, I only realise that I brought the charger, and forgot to put the phone in my bag XD soo stupid. And then saw Shin outside hairflash, Shin and Sunny n his friends went to Capitol to have dinner and I headed to Greenbox+ to K. I only stayed for about half an hour and Shin came and we went over to K2 to sing K with shin's friends..at 11pm we went to pick up Yukio from work =D then we both went back to K.We totally forgot about counting down AND fireworks rofl..Daddy Aggie and her bf came too!!then at around 1, went over to Big Echo for K, again =] finished at 3am and we went to maloney's and won some cash :D Then at around 5am I went to my bby's house ... ^_^
1/1
The next day, I wake up super early!!Shin and Yukio both had work!!I was heaing in y2k to stay with yukio at work watching X-Japan live. Then Shin suddenly came over .I stayed with him for a while to get stuff for work at Djs and he went back to work :( So I met up with Anna Choi just for a bit, I was trying to buy SOMETHING but most of the shops wasnt open...*sigh and then I got a message from Shin saying his stomach hurts :( and wanted tea so I left Anna and got Shin some Jakibabi's special Hot tea!!hope his stomach felt better after that XDD Then I hea for a bit longer with Yukio and headed home, because I was sooo tired and it was so hot!!! When I got home, I saw something REALLY NICE ON THE TABLE . YAY YAY.
The next day, I wake up super early!!Shin and Yukio both had work!!I was heaing in y2k to stay with yukio at work watching X-Japan live. Then Shin suddenly came over .I stayed with him for a while to get stuff for work at Djs and he went back to work :( So I met up with Anna Choi just for a bit, I was trying to buy SOMETHING but most of the shops wasnt open...*sigh and then I got a message from Shin saying his stomach hurts :( and wanted tea so I left Anna and got Shin some Jakibabi's special Hot tea!!hope his stomach felt better after that XDD Then I hea for a bit longer with Yukio and headed home, because I was sooo tired and it was so hot!!! When I got home, I saw something REALLY NICE ON THE TABLE . YAY YAY.
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YUKiO + JAKiBABi ♥Thursday, January 1, 2009 (5:11 PM)
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 !!